Dunedin woman Helena Thompson was only 11 when 78-year-old Christopher David Williams began his three-year spell of systematically grooming and abusing her.
She spoke to the Parole Board at his hearing in June and while she appreciated the care panel members showed, she told the Otago Daily Times her childhood dread returned, having to confront her tortured past.
Ms Thompson, who took the extraordinary step of lifting her own name suppression at the May 2024 sentencing, said the nightmares came "flying back" after the hearing.
"It’s traumatic. It’s like I’m being re-raped," she said.
Williams is serving a near-20-year sentence for sex offences against three girls.
He was initially jailed for 17 years in 2014, for 12 years of sex crimes against two young victims, which started in 1997.
Five years before that abuse began, Williams moved in with Ms Thompson’s family and it was only months before he targeted her.
The rapes occurred during family camping holidays and featured "degrading" behaviour and violence.
Williams would call Ms Thompson derogatory names and forcefully push her down while committing the abuse.
The Parole Board relayed the victim’s comments to her tormentor — he refused to comment.
Panel convener Judge Eddie Paul noted Williams had been referred to undertake a child-sex offender programme but was deemed unsuitable because of his claims of innocence.
"Treatment is only likely if he changes his stance on his continued denials of the offending," he said.
Williams told the board that, despite the appeal period having long passed, he planned on challenging his convictions.
He had no accommodation lined up, no release plan and Judge Paul said the Rolleston Prison inmate realised parole would be declined.
He warned him that would remain the case unless something changed.
"If and until his attitude towards his offending changes, parole is unlikely to be a realistic possibility."
Ms Thompson said her agony would continue until Williams accepted his guilt.
"It goes on forever. I don’t have any closure. I’ll never have any closure until he admits it," she said.
"He knows he’s out in 2033, so he’s never going to admit to anything. He’ll be out celebrating his 90th."
The Parole Board set Williams’ next hearing for May 2027.
It was little solace for Ms Thompson.
"A couple of years comes quick," she said.
