With a theme of migration it is no wonder the Robert Burns Poetry Competition 2020 attracted some poignant entries. Nearly 50 published and unpublished writers entered the annual competition, which marks the Scottish bard’s birthday on January, 25 1759.
The entries are judged by the University of Otago’s Robert Burns Fellow. For 2019 that was Emily Duncan, who was joined on the judging panel this year by Dunedin-based poet Caroline McCurdie.
Forever, as I leave you, my last memory of home remains. Like the revenant, it’s built of things already lost: white sheet out in bad weather; TV keens at audience; blank, cold room nurses a dead pot of tea. The air stirs with silence my mother will not break. Nor I, who walk past her and out … into lonely world. Without affection, I know I must never look back into this memory: mirror; dark place. To birth something as precious as a child then bear them to give up is no grief at all, no way to surrender
goodbye goodbye
is no grief at all, no way to surrender a child. Give them up, then bear to birth something as precious, as dark and mirrored as this memory. I know you will never look back, the world lonely without affection as you walk past me and out … of a silence you will not break. Daughter of dead air, stir empty tea-pot, nurse cold room, keen audience of blank TV. White sheet out in bad weather, you are built of things already lost. The revenant-like remains of home and memory last forever as you leave me.
2: Here, I Live in the Haunted House of the Past
The window is an unforgiving friend. It holds me in. It swallows my sky,
banishes strangers, neighbours and those who get too close. Gone
elsewhere like migratory birds. Gone to fearful spaces beyond, like the dead.
Now my days are full of such absence as settles me. Unquestioning as faith,
I observe the sanctity of ceiling and wall, the furniture of my life.
When night creeps in to wipe me away with its insomnia, I become small
screams in a house. In the morning, I return to the window of my world
as if to a poem I refuse to complete. Here I think
of newspaper reports about civil war in Syria and Yemen, migrants displaced
to oceans dark as glass, and drugs which enshrine dependency. A ghost
of someone I used to know disturbs the window with its knocking, and I
remain frozen to think this stranger wants to commune with the glazed-
like thing Ive become, the swallowed sky reflecting my lasting need for flight.
2nd place — Emer Lyons
Emer Lyons
coming home (after Mary Dorcey and Cherry Smyth)
this nail woman is the real deal the edges of my nails like chopped chilies deep in a fresh cut she knows how to administer the kind of pain a woman needs to feel in order to know something is working the nail woman is not from here and neither am i it’s not the kind of place where they wear name badges it’s just her and her man both feeling the top end of sixty in this tiny shop where she does the nails and he does the clothing alterations i keep thinking about the white shirt that makes my wide childbearing hips look like ships and how much better it’d look cropped
i have the misfortune of an accent but this nail woman has a whole other language going on i stare at the nine tips for keeping your nails good while she admonishes my weak nails and reptilian-like dry hands i get the feeling she makes her own cuticle oil she’s mad that i bought a voucher online she says she had to pay money for that and it would be better in the future if i bring cash because then i can get a discount i feel like moving in she knows exactly the right amount of words to be in complete control of her life
yellow? she asks a second time i want to drown inside a factory that makes only yellow things in a vat of yellow paint that has only just developed a skin the skin of that yellow paint will hold me like a basket until it can hold me no more
the ceramic artist is there when i get back to my new place smashing saucers against the front wall my bedroom is at the back he is filling the garden with ceramic mushrooms says when he’s on mushrooms it’ll be a total head f--- i can’t sleep at night for coughing last night i had some kind of night terror where i was maybe screaming maybe crying maybe just sleeping i ran to the bathroom mirror and checked my face for tears
in the corridor people give me words as if its no trouble i say i like what they say and they say take it its yours they are so sure of the abundance of language i say things i don’t remember them people ask what happened? and i don’t know what they are talking about
the house is old in the way that things in new countries are old people ask things here about the wind trees the age of your house i tell them i don’t have a house what about at home at home they insist making sure i don’t belong i say i don’t know but it’s in a cul-de-sac they are never satisfied with that i still remember learning how to spell bungalow after we moved in
Sophia Wilson3rd place — Sophia Wilson
In-Flux
Did the song in my bones come adrift on sea,
in the wake of a carved canoe? Did it rise on hymn in 1834, when my father’s forebear, William Wade brought his mission work ashore? Was it lugged by the reverend down a briny plank along with a printing press? Sunk in the print of his foot on sand, or the print of his own neat hand? Was it captured in prose in the first printed book to emerge from that printing press? Or carried on a displaced warrior’s song from fierce depths of a Maori breast? Did it sail to Otago on Arima, in 1863, with my mother’s forebears from Ayrshire and their thirteen progeny? Did it beat broken time with a Crimean veteran; ‘‘One of six hundred’’, Samuel Wilson, survivor of Charge of the Light Brigade, laid in lonely Christchurch grave? Or did it hum at his funeral with The Addington Band, to the tune of, ‘‘The Dead March in Saul’’? Did it strike like the stroke that stole one side of early All Black, Vivian Wilson, or dance the beguiling Australian winds that lured his children over the Tasman? Did it drift on the corpses of great aunts and cousins, drowned never knowing to swim; Helen Marr Grey at Taieri Mouth, James and William in a river down South? Did it come seed-buried in gorse and thistle, with Blaikies, Campbells, Mcleods? Did it linger in fields of the sheep breeders, or in Hendersons’ woollen mills, stores and bars? Was it raised on birth cries of the mothers and wives, history renders so deftly invisible, or amid steaming clamour of pots and pans, the laundry, the bleeding, their raw, chaffed hands? In answer I tell you, that the maps on my palms, tell of faith and of love and of toil. They tell of a myriad crimes handed down and assumptions from which we’d recoil. But the song of ancestral migrations resounds in the song that lives on as my own; Song of cells, song of birds, song of wandering herds, song of stars in celestial rotation, song of formation, song of founders, destroyers, homecomings and voyages, song of healing and leaping, sowing and reaping, song of attraction, repulsion and flux; How ancient the song! And so fast undone… For, heat migrates in toxic swathe, icecaps migrate to the seas, and the pollution of human settling would cast us all as refugees. But, today there’s a cooling migration, from river to ocean and cloud; a sublimation, a condensation, soft on our faces, softly to earth; It is raining. And the rain is singing. Still, singing.
UNPUBLISHED POETS
Lily Knox1st place — Lily Knox
Migrating
lace of a wedding dress that was silky to the touch until she wore it on her skin the smoke of a city the gritty, spiny smoke and the streets that smelled of gin honeyed tears she swallows as she knows she can’t return she yearns; an aching for the God that only wallows in the Thames his hand will not extend to the crusted creaky ship or the baby on her hip oh mrs james inglis whose maiden name was ingrid torn by the wind on the salt stained deck no more than the mermaid lashed to the stern. where did it go wrong figurehead?
James James2nd place — James James
INGRESS/EGRESS
(or: I went, I earned, I capitulated & returned)
that lucky country where White is Big as Sun in Too Clear Sky where I took my lover; left then for another golden lover
& the money in the mines and there was money and there was love and there was no money and there was no love and there was death &
where to roll in pubs of jugs with Union men before frozen taps below screens of discarded chicken bones
where to roll in gutters playing knives with Italians sharpening tongues against curbside tables
where to roll balls in corner pockets with Sudanese & stub out cigarettes to enjoy injera with vinegar lips
where to roll down highways in Lebanese jockeys’ sports cars with golden mustaches & thumbs plugged into eye sockets
shots fired I had to take a ride the Undertaking over to a home more broken than that which was as I’d left it now a long grey land of saltpetre sky phosphorescent & divisionous
a decade foreign, not lost a decade spent, not wasted now with none to trust to guide me
and I also A Little Boy Lost then with the blood on his palms offered too many rides to too many stations with Wonders before, to Eat in extreme to belly scrape the bottom to come up to air to return to forgotten the soil beneath my bare feet loaming where colours blink in a days afternoon yet to capitulate yet to return to me.
Karen Judge3rd place — Karen Judge,
Under a Grey Misting Sky Sunday 17 March 2019
I followed my grief to Christchurch this weekend To the East Side, where lie my forbears, progenitors of six generations from English migrants I put flowers there, wiped dust from their plaques and thought about words I could not yet say.
Across Ruru Road, machinery, and many men, busy at their work. Digging graves for fifty.