Getting older far less dreary, more intriguing than arrogance of youth imagined

Gina Barreca reflects on the surprising journey of ageing.

Next week, I'll turn 62. I'm a reader of books and a watcher of movies by vocation. After a lifetime of examining great stories, I know this much is true: Old people in film and literature aren't easy to like, unless they're truly evil or fantastically warped.

Really, really don't tell me about the way older women are changing the way we're perceived, not if you're going to mention Cher, Meryl Streep, Michelle Pfeiffer and Iman. Most of us are not even from the same species as those creatures.

Michelle Pfeiffer is a year younger than I am. She's also from another planet, or she might as well be.

When she was 29 and I was 30, I did not have the temerity to compare myself to that stunning, gorgeous and accomplished woman. So, what, because Michelle and I are now both deeply post-menopausal, I should start seeing her as a reasonable role model? I have a better chance of turning into a turtle over the next 10 years than I have of turning into Michelle Pfeiffer.

You want to mention Judi Dench, Diana Rigg or Helen Mirren? It's the same deal. Look at photographs of these stars when they were younger. They were drop-dead stunningly beautiful, in addition to being outrageously talented. Unsurprisingly, they've stayed that way.

So why do we seem to be surprised, as if they suddenly become glorious at age 60? Why are a lot of us women saying things such as ''I want to be like Diana Rigg and have a major role in a hip television cult program like Game of Thrones when I'm an old woman'' without factoring in that when she was 31, Rigg had already starred in a cult TV show.

At 31, I was trying to figure out whether I could sublet the dank apartment I was renting (I couldn't) and whether I could get a driver's licence in Connecticut, since I couldn't get one in New York (I could).

Yet, at that age, I felt smug about simply being under 40. I had the nerve to wonder what it must be like for people whose lives were no longer ahead of them. Primarily what I felt for the elderly (meaning anyone too old to rollerblade) was pity. Respect or admiration were afterthoughts I had to remind myself to feel.

I thought life after 55 or 60 was like one of those parking lots where you sit in your car until the ferry arrives, except that the boat was crossing the river Styx. No round-trips.

I also thought I'd magically become a quiet, calm, curled-up, pie-baking sweetheart of a lady after age 60, even though I had been nothing but a noisy, raucous, fully inflated Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade float of a pie-hating woman for 59 years.

Instead, I'm learning to dismantle the old sets of directions meant to guide me towards some misty, vague old age. I'm learning that old hungers, desires and ambitions may become reconfigured but rarely disappear.

Very little about getting older resembles the journey I imagined. The roads are far less dreary, the routes more circuitous and the scenery far more intriguing than, in the arrogance of youth, I could have ever imagined.

- Hartford Courant

- Gina Barreca is an author and English professor at the University of Connecticut.

Add a Comment

Our journalists are your neighbours

We are the South's eyes and ears in crucial council meetings, at court hearings, on the sidelines of sporting events and on the frontline of breaking news.

As our region faces uncharted waters in the wake of a global pandemic, Otago Daily Times continues to bring you local stories that matter.

We employ local journalists and photographers to tell your stories, as other outlets cut local coverage in favour of stories told out of Auckland, Wellington and Christchurch.

You can help us continue to bring you local news you can trust by becoming a supporter.

Become a Supporter